CLUELESS!

There are many days I am clueless as to 'right' doctrine. I am no rocket scientist, nor expert in the Bible. I hear no voices, see no visions, nor is my spirit taken into the 3 rd. heavens. I am a 54 year old disabled grandmother, mother and wife. I am confident enough to believe in the literal interpretations of all that pertain to Jesus/Yeshua,but everything else is up for debate. I am liberal, moderate and conservative according to what the topic might be and how I  understand the Scriptures. There is not one denomination or church affiliation that I am 50% in agreement with. My study incorporates ideas from right to left so my education is well versed in the various thought and doctrine. Am I confused sometimes, you bet!But I believe we humans indeed can never say we know all things or all truth nor can we ever be confident in our ability to really understand the ways of God and a spirit realm that we really are absolutely clueless to. We live in a physical world, and are only in the first grade level as to understanding it!
So this prayer really speaks to my heart.

O Lord God,
I have no idea where I am going.
I do not see the road ahead of me,
I cannot know for certain where it will end.
Nor do I really know myself,
and the fact that I think I am following Your will
does not mean that I am actually doing so.
But I believe that the desire to please You does in fact please You.
And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing.
I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire to please You.
And I know that if I do this
You will lead me by the right road,
though I may know nothing about it.
Therefore, I will trust You always though I may seem to be lost
and in the shadow of death
I will not fear,
for You are ever with me,
and You will never leave me
to make my journey alone.

- Amen


From “A Seven Day Journey with Thomas Merton” by Thomas Merton